♥Thursday, June 10, 2010♥
Cake Always Make me SMILE,when i Smile,They SMILE too:D
Bday Uncle:D
His Surprise celebration by me,1st smile:D
My parents and I:D
My Bday card for him,present will come late^ ^
Feelings???
Today afternoon,meet justin to have lunch and buy my step dad bday present and cake den rush to O School for Jessica's Jazz Class:D Very nice chreo dance^ ^ENjoyed!thanks to justin intro:D den went back to taka to get the cake and Rush home...HATE to get squeeze in the train!Damm it.Den rush home,faster bring out the cake,light the candles,prepare my camera..Wait~wait~wait..Candles melting..Called my mum,"Mi, Where u?The candles r melting!!!",mummy replied,"Huh?! I'm at Shop & Save!" im like..WTH!!!Hang! den ii blow out the candles with deep disappointment and loss of excitement...den i sgh,sitting alone at home,at my window,Singing song..."Whenever I am feeling low..."bla bla bla.Den jux feel like crying..I dont know why.Afternoon told my sis and bro to Come back for celebrations,Jie say dunno wad transport very expensive,go on without her.Kor,im going out with my frenz.MY heart simply Sinks...Tears were hiding deep down my heart...Sigh.MUmmy call!!!"dear,im at the lift!" i Quickly lights up the candles,prepare my camera and BOOM!Happy birthday song..Haha!Looking at my step dad Happy face,i felt a bit better.But does not know why,when it's over,i'm still feeling extremely down!
ON my computer,saw"xxxxxxx is in a relationship" I'm speechless.*sobbing*Only god knows if i'm really smiling from my heart and WHEN I'm crying in silence...REALLY ONLY GOD is with me all e way:( Qns"have you ever come across a thought where u just feel like being knock down by a car and die straight away or just die out of a sudden?"cause it happens to me:D How ii wish i could be blind sometimes so that I dun see what i dun wish to and jux feel waht i want to:D then,My life will be great even im living in a total darkness cause,it does not hurt so much den seeing a wonderful world...I really need Thunder storms now and strong winds to Wake me up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!if can,just make me disappear into the air...*crazy*
♥Smile can be deceiving♥
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