♥Monday, May 10, 2010♥
If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you. If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will.
But somehow,all these things just happen unexpectedly...I have no other reason to explain how ii fall in love with you. And how much each day ii just misses you. Everyday, Everytime, Everywhere and whenever i am, I'm always wondering what are you doing and if your stomach still hurts... You're the one I ALWAY First think of,First miss about and First worried about too. But nevertheless, I know one day things might just don't go our way... and everything that we never wanted it to be will just happen..I remember every word you once said to please me,to cheer me,to make me smile or blush even possibly to make me sad or angry...I love every single messages you sent no matter it is hurtful or happy about. Because i rather receive your messages being your scolding or whatever,as long as you don't ignore me...I'm already very please.
Sometimes ii just lost in words on how to express my feelings in front of you...I'm afraid I would say things wrong and make you mad.I'm just afraid of losing you. You're the one i needed most.I believe nobody is perfect,therefore, I'm never mad at you about anything. Though you once promise that you won't smoke around me.. but you still did. I'm never angry or felt unhappy about. Cause I know u KNow what you are doing and know what you want. Therefore, its a decision of your own. I'll just follow. BUt,just to let you know, I'll always care and worried for you no matter what. I hope we can go through all troubles and obstacles together just me, and you...ILY.
you know something...(this is not added on this day.) many times ii cried for you. And i dun dare to let u know. Many times ii feel like hugging u so badly...but ii dun dare. There are even more times, when ii feel like messaging you, but afraid ii might annoyed u ii type and deleted and ii just kept on waiting for ur message hour over hour,day after day...I always feel like talking to someone ii can trust or ii can talk to,but ii cant.I never dare to find kai and razee cause im afraid they will make u more stress or dunno wad,and i never really share with my close frenz about how i really feel..i dunno how to say...There are many things ii really wish it didn't go through my mind...But everytime ii misses u,hoping to meet u,i knew im looking for trouble again...u said to me once, if we always meet,you will sianz and get bored of me...i find it not quite true and i dont dare to answer back...Many times ii just agree,Aiyah!this is really tiring...i dunno wad to say or how to say...I only believe that if u really do love me,you will never get bored of seeing me,instead you will more of kinda cant wait to be with me each day...That's how i think.But i knew it can never be in ur mind.I'm Always childish and inmature in ur eyes...that's what i know...Sob sob.Im always missing you.
In school,Today. Had my maths and geography paper. Maths paper,though ii know im gonna fail cause i have never pass,but ii know i will make improvement.It can be 1 or 2 marks... though it seems little to you,but its already very good to me. Cause seeing myself making improvement than to maintain or to drop, im rather improve little by little,bit by bit den to drop ritez???Anyway,Who dun love to grow in a encouraging and Life full of Praises environment..Ritez???Anyway,everything was just SCREWED up this few days.I hope Rains will wash them away for me soon...AND Rainbow will Come:D
SMILE!!!!!!!!
♥Smile can be deceiving♥
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