Have your ever ONCE hated ur family and wanted to leave home???

This feelings happens to mie many times...But,ii everytime DID tell myself,I NEVER HATED THEM BEFORE!!!but,yy dun ii feel the love and care from them???do ii ever live in their world?yy???!!!why am ii always so left out in my family...between my friends???even the facebook knows!ii jux dun feel like living anymore!ii wanted to die...But i have already promise my mummie,ii will not leave this world before her...cause she said it was veri rude to leave before ur mother.den ii once told her say, i have already dreamt dat i will die of a car acident and will die before ii reach the age of 40.and ii believe it!because, secret.Never mind...

ii jux dunnoe yy ii am always alone whenever im sad and needed someone to be dere...NONE of my family member would be dere for mie...and if anything happens between mie and my silblings,ii am always the one to be get scolding first and punish!But why???cause im the youngest???Its not fair!ii sooooooooooooooooo much wish the my REAL daddy was with mie now...or ii would like to join him OUT OF THE WORLD!!!ii misses him so much!

im so hurt...Veri sad veri SAD!!!IM REALLIE VERI SAD!!! who can reallie understand how ii feel now...