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♥Saturday, March 28, 2009♥

I jux had my camp on the 25th of march -27th of march 2009.All the sec3s are going to JBAC for camp for 3days 2nitez!All the 3Ns classes combined and total only got 23students of 10 girls and 13 boys...Superb uhh?hahax
Our Group ish GROUP3 our instructor ish:Natallie Simone Chan
she ish from the Camp High Achievers
Our Chief ish:Chief Charles

Day1:
Here's my personal goal...
I wish to overcome my fears,which ish i faced in the 1st day of camp.
They are...Lightening+Thunder & Heights!!!

Have i achieved them?
Heights,hmm...have abit bahhz.But not alot.Im still able to complete those High Elements,
all thanks to my group members encouragement and thier support!

What will i bring back with me...?
I will BRING ack with me...INDEPENDANCE & CONFIDENCE!!!

REFLECTIONS!!!
(What have i learnt today?)
(How i feel about the camp so far?)
I have learn to motivate myself with the ENCOURAGEMENT from my team members,and to do some self-talking in my mind to overcome my fears.By the way,im very PROUD of my group members HIGH-SPRITS and SUPPORTS!As we seems to be very bonded and most of us are all A SAME KIND!
SHANK!!!
S-Superb
H-Hyper
A-Active
N-Noisy
K-Kids

Day2 REFLECTIONS

I have learn that TEAM WORK is very important in Activities,ESPECIALLY in CAMPS!
I also learn how to COMMUNICATE with others and learn from each other mistakes.The
HIGH-ELEMENTS was a GREAT OPPORTUNITIES for me to understand my team members
STRENGTH & WEAKNESSES more...and I have DEFINATELY ENJOYED in the SEC3 2009 CAMP1WhooHoo...:PI really wish to thanks my INSTRUCTOR:Natallie Simone Chan for guiding me thoughtout this camp and gives me chances to lead my group members and bring down the camp!She was Totally COOL!Lastly,We had our CAMP FIRE in the nitez and my friend:S E Rachael abd I won the "TITANIC"acting show and oso my Group :which is GROUP3 Won the BEST Campers Group and also I have WON THE BEST CAMPER!!!
Thanks to all the instructors and CAMPERS!!!

I LOVE SEC3 CAMP 2009!!! 1 GROUP3 CLAP!
gROUP 3 ISH..F-I--E(fine) (CLAP)GO..SEXY SEXY
Down the L-I-N-E(line) (CLAP)HORNY HORNY
& we L-O-V-E(love) (CLAP)ACTIVE ACTIVE
on the T-I-M-E(time) (CLAP)NOISY NOISY
OHH... (CLAP)"KIA SHU""KIA SHU"
Group3 ish the...B-E-S-T(best) .......& YOU GO..........
Among R-E-S-T(rest) -SHANK-(4CLAPS)X3
& we yea yea yea yea yea... .........OHH..............
GROUP3 ISH THE BEST! GROUP3!!!


GROUP3-Combined of all 2009 3Ns class.
Total:23students
Girls:10
Boys:13
INSTRUCTOR:Natallie Simone Chan

♥Smile can be deceiving♥
@ 9:55 PM

♥Sunday, March 22, 2009♥


I feel so lost...

My mind started to go blank.Silents,ish the only the thing i feel.Nothing but peace.
Quietness all around me...

Suddenly i feel,When life turn ur feeling down,Keep this words in mind.
Dont let life discourage you;everyone got where he/she ish had to begin where
thier starting line was.Believe that life ish worth living for,and your belief will create the Fact.
Out of ur vulnerabilities,den will come ur STRENGTH!
FEELings are much like waves,
We can't stop them from coming but,
we can choose which one to SURF.
"HAPPINESS ish where we find it,
but Rarely where we seek it..."
Do what you can with wad you have where you are,
Cause...Nothing ish IMPOSSIBLE to a willing HEART!

SUCCESS ISH NOT FINAL,FAILURES ISH NOT FATAL:
IT ISH THE COURAGE TO CONTINUETHAT COUNTS!

Though no one can go back and make a brand new start,
but anyone can start from now and make a brand new ENDING...

Cause,everyone deserve a second chance,as we are not born perfect ritez?
people do make mistakes in life,only if they are willing to admit their
mistakes and turn over a new leaf.

haiz,the feeling of being alone at home...
so boring,lonely and scary.
Often anyhow think and create stupid dremas.
Feel so lost and confused now..
Cause...My life ish still FILLED with many unanswered Questions and many
many confusion!All this are driving me out of mind...haiz,thinking of these,thinking
of that...so sad!Why do things make llife so COMPLICATED?

PLEASE DONT TAKE AWAY MY HAPPINESS AND SCARE MY LAUGHTER AWAY!!!
I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY EVERYDAY...
why ish it so difficult???

Problems,stay away,
leave me alone and
take all away!
dont give me headache
and stay away...
i want my happiness and laughter back..
they are wad i am now today!
leave them alone and get away..
they are mine...no one can take them
AWAY!!!shiu...

♥Smile can be deceiving♥
@ 6:04 PM

♥Friday, March 20, 2009♥


SORRY ABOUT THOSE DAYS THAT I STOP BLOGGING.mY COMPUTER BROKE DOWN...THATS YY.



I was wondering yy moi relationship with my sister was so cold.I've been thinking of ways to pull my relationship with my sister closer...But it jux onli possible to see it in my dream.I once felt i losted her when she went over for a dance trip to Genting this year.I cried in the middle of the night to blow off the burning candle.It seems so terrible without her in my life.I cried over missing her and treating her terrible when she was with me,but thats me.
I really do wan to be like other sister who relationship ish as close as a sweety honey.But,i keep on thinking,its jux a DREAM.it will never happen to us...Sometimes,i keep asking myself WHY?
-Why cant we be close to each other?
-Why do we always have to fight or Quarrel over small things?
-Why jux we cant treat each other well like our last day of our life?

ITS JUST IMPPOSIBLE!(MAYBE BE OPPOSITE 1DAY)
I WISH...

Dearest sister,
I LOVE YOU!
Let me just see you smile,let me just hold you tied,
LET me brings you joy,love and care
and let me makes you life unable to FORGET!

Missing you when you are not around,
Hoping you were beside me when im feeling down,
Dreaming of holding you tied and have some fun,
never think of you'll treat me well.

but everything jux turn UPSIDE DOWN,
and you are the one who...
treat me well and brings me fun,
care for me when i feeling down.
hold me tied and gives me warm,
miss me day and nitez and love me STRONG!

I love you SISTER!
Im sorry for the time when i treat you cold,
im down for the way when i say you were wrong.
i ask fer ur forgiveness now,
and love me long!

SISTER 4-EVER!

♥Smile can be deceiving♥
@ 6:01 PM

♥Wednesday, March 11, 2009♥

I dun understand how cum im someone else crush but im the one who ish stressing up!i should be the one happie and the people dat lyk me suppose to be stress ritez...cuz they gt competitor...hahax Recently,a number of guys confessed thier feelings to me,and i was so stressed up.I only shared with one of my closest "secret diary"my feelings.I feel so much betta tokin it out...But,till today,things dun seems to be solved.My closest "secret diary" managed to talk me out and his words all makes sense.It open up my mind and thinking and loosen up my stressed!Im so glad to Know him...His my biggest gift this year!haiz...I jux rejected one,n oso managed to turn 2 down and im left with 2 hu ish in my sch.1 chinese and 1 malay.I have a crush on them both.But i gotto choose one onli...
A moment ago,the chinese and i tok things out clear.He told me,if we were fated to be together,we long will be together and wun hv to w8 till today where both parties get so stress and crazie about this ritez...then i agreed with him.& he told me...that if i reallie love someone,u will want the person to be happy and not forcing he/she to be with you.and added,he said,"if i know we two are not going to be happy with each other and not going to last long,i prefer to be a friend of yours then".After hearing this,i suddenly feel so much relax and happier that actually he could understand me when im in a spot like this.Im so appreciated.But then,i was thinking if it was fair for him anot...haiz..
Seriously speaking,BGR ish something dat no one can force hu to be with hu.and all do COUNTS on each other FEELINGS.Without feelings,Both dun have to dream of each other to be together den.
Anyway,i would like to say a big thank you to...
-"baby"-
-"wei wei"-
-"dengue mosquito"-
-"lao qian"-
-"ovan"
THese few people are always there fer me whenever im down,happie or sick!They are my TRUE FRIENDS AND BROTHERS!!!
Love you guys for doing so much fer me!!!Exuu guys RAWKZ!All the BEST to you!HAPPIE ALWAYS,CHEERS!

♥Smile can be deceiving♥
@ 10:10 PM

♥Tuesday, March 10, 2009♥


Do some of my friends really know how I really FEELS sometimes?!
Cause the most hurting thing ish your cloest friend actually treats you cold when you are feeling down!Thats Gotto HURTS maN!the feeling sucks.and its painful...
I felt this many times before after entering into a SECONDARY school.You'll even learnt to know hu reallie ish ur TRUE frens and hu actually are jux ur frenz...These are all reals..and they are true.
You really get to learnt lots of stuff in secondary schools other den EDUCATIONs kaes!hahax:P

♥Smile can be deceiving♥
@ 6:46 PM

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Hmm...The tests are difficult.These tests are the first test im taking in UPPER SECONDARY.These are great challenges to me in the start of the year...i gotto work extremelt hard now...as i know and heard from many people says that SEC3 ish a critical year ask you can easily RETAINED!i dont wish to be one of them!Its goin to be so embarrassing to be the only one who are left and the rest of your friends are PROMOTED!Gosh..this ish so STRESSFUL.I really need lots of helping hand this year.
OMGosh...I passed my english!Failed my math badly and i think i dun really do well in my COmmon test!Die...What am i going to do?!I hate to be so Stress uP!haiz...
I gotto take a breathe.
I think im going start planning for my goals in life!
STUDY! STUDY!STUDY!?
NO WAY!I will go crazy!
Hmm...Maybe study hard?but oso get to play at the same time but AT the right time?Maybe Thats the way!
haiz...hope things would go well this year...
All the BEST!

♥Smile can be deceiving♥
@ 6:37 PM

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@ 6:37 PM

♥Saturday, March 7, 2009♥

Wah...today ish so exciting lorx!First tym joining TRYtalon in my life sia!Somemore yesterday got OAC hiking...- -!tired sei...Run From SCHOOL all the way to BUKIT TIMAH HILL...Rounded off got oso 11-12km lorx...Not empty handed ehh..With 6>bottles of jelly cans in a army bag with a Harver sack bag filled with clothes ehh...ALL the way Upp Down Upp Down...sianz sei.Legs oso like jelly ler lorx...:(
After running or completing the hike,Still go to LIM CHU KANG CEMTRY sia!!!Midnight ler lorh...Go there do OUTDOORS COOKING,MAP READING & NIGHT WALK!Quite scary..cooling and challenging.Hahax:)
Then,by the time,Quite sleepy and Tired ler..Then on the way ack to sch...rested on the bus..Then reach sch..unpack harver sack all dat,get valuabler..then go my senior hus.
The next BIG day was today which is TRYtalon lorh...Alot people sia!
Then..BLA BLA BLA(long story)Team event,clclist changed to Running oso lerx...Then become 1swimmer,2runners.Hahax Finish the race,Managed to received a TROPHY wich ish a MILO Tin- -!
hahax but it was quite a experience lorx...Then by the time..All my MUSCLE TEAR liao!!!

♥Smile can be deceiving♥
@ 8:43 PM

♥Tuesday, March 3, 2009♥

I've been wondering,how i get to fall in love with a boy?What i know was,by my FEELINGS.There's some guys that like me,but i dun seems to have feeling fer them..but Those who i like,they is either attached or too old fer me!haiz...I've been wondering,why life have to be so complicated.Especially!when it comes to RELATIONSHIP...It reallie gives people headache and heart breaks.Know why?Cause it really hurts to LOVE someone That does not love you,so till now,im still not sure if i do really know what LOVE really is...
haiz...i gtg.
To be continued:P

♥Smile can be deceiving♥
@ 8:54 PM

♥Monday, March 2, 2009♥

Hey!Promis me after you guys read my blog,keep it a secret k?
I have many fears hidden in me.
EG.im afraid of dark,lightening,ghosts,heart breaks,stress and many more...On the outside of my look,i may look strong and active or could say daring,but actually im timed.hahax
Even the basic of eating medicine such as panadol,i can cry...wanna know why,cause i dunno how to swallow it!lolz but its true im telling you.I can take 15 to 30mins juxt to take one pill.hahax UNBELIVABLE ritez?!haiz...sometimes im even stress till cry.I dunno why i cant take stress...is like stress ish trapping me by breathing and thinking!Whenever im stress,i cant think.i would jus break down and cry.The only way i could feel betta ish to unturn my pipe.hahax cool yea?
I even feel fear of fallen in love when im young...cause im afraid to get hurt.Cause,i see many of my freinds did stupid things to themselves cause of Deeply HEART BROKEN!!!As time passes,i reallie realise how pain ish to feel heart broken.It really hurts,damm deep to the bottom of ur heart dat sometimes u even feel like dying fer ur loved ones.
Anyway,tmr i still have test,so..

TO BE CONTINUED...

♥Smile can be deceiving♥
@ 10:19 PM

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Last night,after my work,i reached home and bath straight away and i ate medicine and i just fallen asleep.The next day which ish today,i feel so strengthless and sleepy.As i go to school,i feel giddy.Then,i have to take my Common test.Social studies,Geography and POA.I find it so hard.On the time when im taking my geography test,my head keep spinning.i request to my teacher that i wanted to go to the rest room.As she sllows,i went and bring my panadol along...i Ate it in the toilet,n went back to class.i den feel sleepy and started resting on top of my paper.I realise,my breathing is difficult and my vision was blurr.I was worried.Then,i planned,after i had my lunch,im goin home.I called my mom,and informed her.She was worried about me too.i went to the office and write a excuse letter for leaving school early then i went home to rest.
as i wake up,i felt much betta.
Till now,im still having a BAD FLU,slight cough and fever.This moment i realise,i hated to fall sick!As,i cant eat tibits,the food that i liked and cant have Cold drinks.Is like a plain of tasteless food and days im going through.I hope to recover soon,and play with my friends and eat my favourites FOOD!

♥Smile can be deceiving♥
@ 9:44 PM

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i was selected to a attachment to work under sakura...I thought it was a good chance to make more friends and get more experience..But though its all true but then i realise...Work its just for killing time and money.Not fun at all...But tiring.I was told to go there and help out,I'm the only one from belestiers outlet,with one of my captain.My manager told me,my captain will look after me there and i don't hv to worry much,but things turn out so different.I was group different from him...Here is where things started to changed.
I was group with 4 to 5 people of aged 17 &above.It was weird.I first started chatting with them and also knowing theirs names...They told me,it was a job by sakura catering...so we are group to make things work out easier...my group was under "TampaYakki"and "Chinese Snacks"and drinks cooler.Our job was to top up drinks that are finishing and keep the area that we are in-chargeof clean and tidy.Also to help the customers to clear theirs unwanted plates and food.It seems to be easy to you,but tried standing for 10hours without sitting and only 30Min's fer break to toilets and lunch and get back to work straight.It was DAMM TIRING!!!I swear...It was freaking bored too.Standing under hot sun doing all this...I find it so,"No Life" then.
AS time passes,i kept thinking of my outlet manager,things to do there and the fun i had there...It was hurting.As then,I found the importance of My own outlet then helping out at JURONG EAST-Science Centre!I slowly feel regretted abit by bit.Then,I slowly changed my thinking to,wad can i gain from here and how can i improve myself Betta n stuff.so i felt Betta afterwards.I realise,i can learn from my colleagues their hard-working and On looking to future challenges inspired me.so,i started to help them out the things that i can do...then ,slowly,i know wad to do normally and then,my friends and I begins to talks and jokes.
After work,the big group of friendliness scare my laughter away,and i started to feel scared...they seems to be stranger to me but they treated me like their sister.But,i still find them very fierce.Maybe cause of the aged gap i believed.Hope to know them betta if there another chance.but hope not a big group again...

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@ 9:16 PM